It's hard being a mommy

You know what I've discovered- It's hard being a mommy.

Reason 1:
I want to do everything right. From what to feed her, when, how to put her to sleep and what car seat she uses. It's hard when you think you are doing it "Right" but some other mommy does it her "Right" way. But the ways are total opposite!

Reason 2:
No matter how hard you try you are going to mess up in some way. This is REALLY hard for me. I don't want to mess up in a life altering horrible way. I don't want to mess up at all.

Reason 3:
Sick babies are very needy. Poor thing doesn't want to be put down because then she can't breath. She caught a cold. (They say babies get 6-11 a YEAR!!!!) But there is laundry and cleaning and everything to do!

Reason 4:
I'm still adjusting to the fact that I can't have a total agenda and plan for every day. We all are creatures of habit (just look at how you get ready for bed every night and see) and I think I would like to predict what the day is going to bring. I thought I would be better about not knowing. Some days I am, but this week is hard, when you have plans to see someone or be somewhere at a certain time and she decides that nap time is now or nap time SHOULD have been a hour ago!

Reason 5:
Even with all these reasons why it's so hard, I know that getting to mommyhood was way harder. Some one who went through infertility as well said "It's OK to have bad days. Just because your journey was harder and you feel like you should always be happy- sometimes you just have bad days."

So even with my "Reasons" why it's so hard it's- not so bad- really, but can she nap when I need to do laundry?!?!?!?! :)