Deep Breath

Today we found out that my cervix has actually lengthened! Hurray! The bed rest seems to be working.
The hard way we found out was that at 4 this morning I had some contractions and we went to the ER to have them check it out. I got another IV and hooked up to monitors and had some not so fun poking, but after a while and a fetal fibriconetic test that came back negative they decided that my contracts were not serious and they sent me home. We were so glad to find out that the fetal test came back negative. That means that I'm not producing the hormones to go into labor right now.
I remembered the last words the nurse told me on Friday, "You go to the ER if there is something going on. You know your body best and we can check it out."
I was reassured by the doctors and nurses that were glad that I came in rather than try to tough it out.
We are emotionally drained today, but joyful. I had some time to ponder our drive into the hospital and how it represented our journey towards parenthood. You see it was totally dark today at 5 this morning on the way to the hospital. TOTALLY. There was a fog so thick that I have never seen in our town before. You had to be right next to the street light to tell what color it was. We "knew" the destination and the roads to get there, but had to pause just to make sure that were were headed in the right direction, and that others would be safe. I don't totally want to over analize our simple 10 minute trip, but it was a good way for God to remind me- "I know the path. I have it laid out for you. You may know where you will end up, but I have already been on the road before you and prepared the way."