It's time for true confessions here on Highs and Ludlows... Here goes.. I've done some journaling, some true confessions, and some humorous stories, but sometimes it's just plain easier to let the pictures speak for themselves. I feel like something is missing and it is because I don't always want to share the not so funny or hard stuff.
Sometimes it's hard to be open and honest and say, I'm having a hard time right now trusting in God. Or I'm experiencing burnout raising my twin two year olds who scream the word "no," as if their very life depended on the volume and number of times it is chanted- TIMES TWO!! Or to say, I wish I was just able to talk face to face to some of my friends who read this blog instead of keeping up electronically. Or I'm really struggling with insecurity and putting a happy face on my blog makes me feel like I'm good enough...
So if I've not run over half my audience away by now... I'm going to TRY to add some more personal reflection and insight and open honesty. Cause it's an area I really do want to grow in and not be struggling with it at the nursing home.
Here are some thoughts from Sports Camp-
This week I've been volunteering at Sports Camp for church. That's right me in sports. Well not quite- I'm actually a snack lady for the junior camp and deliver apple and goldfish to 60 four and five year olds. I get the privilege of watching and helping out where needed and get to be in air conditioning! Yesterday, I listened in as the kids heard about the story of Jesus feeding the 5,000 from five loves and two fish, and heard the gospel presented. And later, as I was refilling lemonade I was almost in tears as I smiled and poured lemonade. I felt as if I was truly being Jesus to these little ones. I am a bit emotional and I know this about myself, but being on a room where so many little ones get to hear how Jesus loves them really makes my heart happy. Then I in turn felt so loved and so cared for by Jesus. It was as if he held me and gave me a hug that reminded me that I'm His little girl that he loves and will always love and that he cares for all of my needs all the time.
May you be Jesus today in someone's life, and be reminded that you too are his little child who likes hugs and lemonade and he LOVES to give them to you!
4 comments:
hang in there dear friend...mommying is the hardest and best job we will ever have...check out my blog in the next day and check out how God has moved me from the same place! wish we were having coffee (iced of course) and lifiting each other up...miss you tons, big hugs :) jp
I've wondered about you and 2 2 year olds and a 4 year old,tho I'd think 2 2 year olds would be enough of a challenge.
This too shall pass...
Hang in there.
I know you're more prepared than I was.
Love, Mom aka Granny
I think the more you say those true honest things, the more you might help moms like me who look up to you and struggle too and wonder if you struggle but see you being so perfect all the time and then judging myself harshly because I feel alone when I struggle... so yes, I am all for some true confessions, because being a Mom is hard and we are all trying to survive, not screw it up and getting by trying to trust God on this wild journey! :)
Thanks y'all!
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