It was the start of trying to wrap my mind out of the probability that we would be moving soon. That was July 2. Today is the 27. It has been a whirlwind.
After having lived here for 11 years I have steeled myself against many many dear friends leaving. Each time I hug myself and smile- I get to stay. A little more time to push down roots, a little more time to watch my children grow in our forever house. Alas, those are not His ways and His plans. You would think that living in a place called College Station, you would KNOW that you live in a double transitionary place. College is a brief 4 years (for most:) and Station is a stop, a transition, a pass through ( think Kings Cross Station in the HP movies!) But I didn't see it coming.
We are moving for the company on the dresses. Austin gives them a chance to higher people who can make it all work. A chance to grow, and for me to have a do over.
You see when it was 11 years ago, I did not want to leave Austin. But how sweet the Lord is to give me a second chance to depend on him and to have a second chance to say, "Not my will but thine. "
So I am. I lay my dreams of watching my little girls grow up in this "forever" home, I lay down my comfort, and community (o how this one stings!), and sing again- this world is not my home. I'm just a stranger passing through.
6 comments:
we are going to miss you tons! Praying for a smooth transition and for Faith to continue that this is the best for you and God has his plan which sometimes we can't fully understand living forward, but most likely will reveal itself looking backward :) Love you!
Will be praying for you guys!! So excited for your new start, but know how hard it is to uproot and begin again, but God is so good. Hang in there. :)
I had been having fun living in denial this week, now my heart hurts again.
I love your attitude, it is so hard to lay down our will and take up His, so painful and yet so rewarding.
I am taking comfort (perhaps strangely so :) in the fact that I will get to spend eternity with you and so many other amazing believers who I love, so it's just like your going on a little vacation ( a blink of an eye) and soon we'll get to spend forever home.
and yet it wasn't supposed to be you, you were one of the locals....
I'm not even one of the stayers who has to say goodbye, and you've brought tears to my eyes. Hope you can find a new forever home and a community that will add to the forever community of believers that you've built in CS.
Crying right now. ;( Charissa, I am so grateful to have had the opportunity to know you. You are a wonderful woman of God and an amazing Mother! I admire you more than I can say and will truly miss you & your family...so much! Thank you for blessing my heart & life, Friend!! May the Lord grant you peace as you continue on the journey He's laid out for you!
Just read your blog. Had no idea you were moving. We'll be praying for you guys as you transition.
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