It was the start of trying to wrap my mind out of the probability that we would be moving soon. That was July 2. Today is the 27. It has been a whirlwind.
After having lived here for 11 years I have steeled myself against many many dear friends leaving. Each time I hug myself and smile- I get to stay. A little more time to push down roots, a little more time to watch my children grow in our forever house. Alas, those are not His ways and His plans. You would think that living in a place called College Station, you would KNOW that you live in a double transitionary place. College is a brief 4 years (for most:) and Station is a stop, a transition, a pass through ( think Kings Cross Station in the HP movies!) But I didn't see it coming.
We are moving for the company on the dresses. Austin gives them a chance to higher people who can make it all work. A chance to grow, and for me to have a do over.
You see when it was 11 years ago, I did not want to leave Austin. But how sweet the Lord is to give me a second chance to depend on him and to have a second chance to say, "Not my will but thine. "
So I am. I lay my dreams of watching my little girls grow up in this "forever" home, I lay down my comfort, and community (o how this one stings!), and sing again- this world is not my home. I'm just a stranger passing through.
